Hattie Watson

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Finally, after a long absence it seems like, I am on the road again. Currently making my way to Los Angeles. Being on the road really feels like home to me. I can’t begin to explain how content I am when driving. It’s just a sense of release I suppose. So easy to just drive and not really have to worry about anything else. I wish I would give myself more time with each stop to really experience something in each town. Always in a hurry to get somewhere it seems though. So much time to think though. I constantly think about what else I am capable of doing, which is a lot I believe. Sometimes thinking is too much though. It makes you worry more and maybe that is why I can never stay on track. It’s really hard to think so far ahead about my life. I think that’s putting some expectations that could lead to disappointment. I have expectations I suppose, but nothing that isn’t out of my reach really. I am a dreamer but a dreamer to a point then it’s time to be realistic. Dreaming about things so far ahead just feels like a waste of time. You can’t plan your future. You can expect things but never plan for the future. Something can always happen to alter those plans. I just live day to day or week to week. That’s more realistic.

It really interests me on how people are interested in what I do. Not like me or any other model is doing anything to add to the world. Not saving homeless or children or the world. It amazes me. I sat next to a woman on a plane one time and she told me about all the charity work she does for helping abused women and children and when she asked me what I did, I was just like “I model. I take pretty photos.” While, she was really interested in what I do and was nice and thought it was lovely, in the back of my mind, she was the one who was amazing and beautiful and doing something. Now, I probably could never do what she does, adding something to someone’s life would be great. Life isn’t all about being pretty and partying and getting “known”. I could care less about any of that. I just want to live and travel and keep myself happy. I don’t know how I will continue to do it my whole life, but I’ll figure it out when I have to.

I’m a rambling. Enjoying a cup of tea and listening to Graveyard - Hisingen Blues record. Got the BBC on in the background. I have a shoot later tonight. It’s rainy outside. As much as I hate to say it, it would be kind of awesome to actually see a tornado but it not actually hit anyone. Always been a fan of tornado chaser. Maybe i’ll do that? hah Hell no. I couldn’t live in the mid-west or here in OKC. No offense. I am a city or beach girl. I could really go for some Pho right now. Cold weather always makes me want to drink tea and eat soups. I was very much needing this time out of Texas. I will always be a proud Texan, but I’m ready for a new world and a new life somewhere else. I’ll make it happen soon. That’s one goal I can make and not disappoint myself.